I’ve came a long way and still have so far to go. Each step lightens my Soul because I choose not to fold or bend the knee when the odds are against me. Can you comprehend how it feels to walk in these shoes? One day you will. Am I speaking from a position or wisdom or ignorance? I cannot say yet but will attest that each step has me revealing the former whilst chipping the latter and this brings its own type of suffering. Why? Because the further I glimpse into the nature of this realm and decode its programming language the more obvious it becomes that everything is as intended.
That is a really bitter pill to swallow. Especially for one with a revolutionary mindset that is the original rebel without a pause. And yet, I have to stop and think. For what end? With what intent? Its one to wish to conquer everything but when one is left without a challenge then the tears start flowing because nothing else is quite as intense as the chief definite aim around which you base your existence. Mine is liberation. I’m not there yet but am willing to forego anything in terms of my temporal satisfaction in order to achieve this because I truly do not like manifesting on this planet, again and again, with a memory wipe thrown in between incarnations.
Count yourself lucky if you have no imperience of this nor suspect its even possible because I can most certainly assure you it is. Not that you should listen and just accept it, verbatim. That would be foolish. I’m a broken man with shattered dreams that has been put through the mill since he stepped in and the pressure never seems to relent. If this is what it takes to get free or thrive trying then it explains why a lot of you will stay stuck to the wheel of time for a great many incarnations because the ride is so hypnotic and convincing that to question it seems ludicrous. The Game of Souls has you, my friend.
Add into the mix various elements and interests that know this and profit from normalizing ignorance whilst bringing the worst to the surface and broadcasting it across the planet and you see why an appetite for destruction is part of the programming along with a feeling of being incomplete or imperfect so they seek solutions anywhere but inside them and that ensures that live, die, repeat is the way they step onto the psycho-social treadmill that is endorsed by all celebs, the rich and famous. “Be like us!” they say, with a grin. What they keep secret is they’re actually miserable within and being used by a pimp that placed his hooks in to elevate them for their position. The rings and things they sing about and the clout are just there to make the trick more attractive and ensure the take home percentage fattens anothers pockets with their effort.
And yet, this is how its supposed to be. The pedigree of tyranny is so ancient on this planet and so miscomprehended that it makes me wonder about the intent behind this creation and that unfolds a whole different spiral of consciousness as one starts to examine their relationship to the node along with their propagation of the thinking due to their implicit acceptance. We all want to get ahead, have shiny things, command respect and be seen as something special. This is actually the wounded child within that wants nothing else from its parents than to be Witnessed and encouraged. None of us get this. At least, not as we wish. The lack creates a schism that is then exploited and filled with all kinds of isms and the (false) self pops into existence to take over your incarnation and its so convincing with its rhetoric that you think you’re it.
Its like sliding into a dream and then forgetting your real existence as the one dozing because the images are so strong and vivid. In that respect I rose from this slumber and the true nature of the Game is horrifying. And yet, its all as intended. That obviously means I’m missing something at the moment that needs a greater perspective and this state of perfection is toward what I’m striving but its such a wild predicament that it can be entirely tempting to wish to be plugged in again. Except, that can’t happen. Its impossible, my friend. Once a mind has been expanded it never shrinks back to its original limits and thus if you’re going through hell the best advice you’ll get is keep going.
I’ve came a long way and still have so far to go. Each step lightens my Soul because I choose not to fold or bend the knee when the odds are against me. All in the Game, yes? Exactly as intended. And yet there are levels to this because whilst your existence may be scripted and you’re actually little more than a meat marionette that is being force fed impulses that you chalk up as your own preferences then write the cheque which results in a credit or debit of your consciousness which all but forces another incarnation because you only step out with what you came in:
Nothing. To be more accurate, no thing. See how a little space is so powerful? Add it to imperfect and the truth is revealed because you were born to be thee in a time everyone wants to be anyone but themselves. They say in an era of universal deception the truth is the song the revolutionary sings. Usually they nail him to a cross and then celebrate his death whilst twisting his messages for coming generations. Exactly as intended, yes? See, things like this make me question the paradigm or my own resonance and that is a side effect of the Warrior mindset because only one who still has that pep in his step can flex his awareness and look outside of the reality tunnel they’ve been digging and ask “Wait a minute, where exactly is this headed and who laid the blueprint?“.
Thats what nearly got me killed previously because by doing this I veered off the script and that was corrected via the power of sex, drugs and hypnosis. Told you you’re sleep walking and that moment for me was my initiation into the Game as its most basic and advanced levels as I had to sink to the depths in order to ascend. Where am I now? Somewhere near a state of equilibrium. Don’t get me wrong, I do appreciate it but click that pretty much all of everything you take for granted was, for me, never an option and the things that I can do may seem like fairytales or pure made up fantasy but that is the way it is because this realm constantly recycles the same elements ergo if you are served eight entrees then don’t expect a main meal or even your just desserts. Much like the term suggests I’m perched at the entrance to this realm and thus am in but not of the entire human experience which affords a different perspective as my Soul extends from higher dimensions.
Is that the true cause of my resistance? I suspect it is, much to the chagrin of the Slave/Masters. The rest won’t even suspect it exists as a potential within them even though the fact they see so well behind closed eyelids when dozing should be an immense hint that maybe, just maybe, the schizophrenics are onto something when they say something outside of them is presenting impulses to their awareness. They are, in that respect, malfunctioning mystics and that is a huge problem as its akin to being given the latest smartphone with all the bells and whistles then installing the software from a primitive brick that scrambles its circuits and doesn’t work as intended.
Reality has many wavelengths. The Game you are all decoding at the moment is the most base. Totally stripped of nuance and details its a basic question of procreation with as much consumption as you can handle that is designed to obscure the reason behind the thirst that cannot be quenched. What you are seeking is not of this realm but is in it, nonetheless.
The sheer levels of information, the bioluminescent sparks from within and the datastream we swim in as we interact with others is entirely dizzying. This is what I intuit the autistic person clicks as they are not numb, as most said, but actually hypersensitive to whats going on inside them. Imagine being hit with a flashbang of emotion each time you blinked that whited out your vision and made your ears ring and you’ll have a pretty accurate perspective of whats happening to them as they decode their personal wavelength. On the flip if humanity hadn’t been dragged down to the lowest and most basic depths we’d feelsee what we miss and the answers would be obvious because we’d start asking the right questions. Of course, like schizos, its not a one size fits all thing because the medical establishment really enjoys labelling problems and pushing pills to manage symptoms whilst ignoring the underlying cause but, remember, exactly as intended. Here is where it gets interesting:
You can choose whether or not you wish to be in resonance with this. Sure, it may cost you everything and others may see you as turning your back on them but liberation is intensely personal and spiritual development is a solo sport at its essence. What happens when you get there? At some point you’ll stop, look back and think:
“I’ve came a long way and still have so far to go. Each step lightens my Soul because I choose not to fold or bend the knee when the odds are against me“.
Can you comprehend how it feels to walk in these shoes? One day you will. Am I speaking from a position or wisdom or ignorance? I cannot say yet but will attest that each step has me revealing the former whilst chipping the latter and this brings its own type of suffering. Why? Because the further I glimpse into the nature of this realm and decode its programming language the more obvious it becomes that everything is as intended, I am powerfully protected and this is my last spin in the Game.
Till we meet again
