You are not a person but a people. To many people this concept can seem a bit strange upon first hearing it but that is because they’ve been trained to be alienated from Self and instead are fragmented. Incoherent is a term that describes it best. For them its often easier to see this state in others hence we have phrases like “I don’t know what came over her” and “He was a totally different person”. Stop and think:
How can this be possible if you are one being? It can’t. If, however, you can entertain the concept that you may actually have many different versions of yourself within, at this very moment, then things can start to get very interesting… Let me tell you a little something about a special state I call the Witness:
The Witness is who you actually are, in and beyond this realm. It is that I Am presence that makes all of this possible. From one life to the next as well as from sleep to dreaming it remains constant. Much like water it takes the shape of whatever presents and is poured within. This, as you can imagine, means it can be easily manipulated by various aspects, both outside and within. What do I mean by this? Well, for example, can you remember a time when you felt totally at ease, comfortable in your flesh and fully present? It may just be one of those days when you rose feeling well rested and filled with happiness. For many these events occur at random but once you become aware of the Witness you can then set the tone which allows a higher state of consciousness to become your base level. On those days, you may have noted, things just seem to go well. Strangers smile as you pass them. Its almost like they can feel your coherence shining upon them and that illumination lifts their spirits as well. A Warrior I know who has an immense sense of empathy towards animals stated “I’d shifted my wavelength and was a state of magnificence when I decided to go for a walk as the sun was shining. I was strolling along the pavement noticing how effortless this all is and how I could feel an immense sense of fluidity and ease thanks to my graceful movement. In front of me there were some birds that were pecking and feeding. A huge radiance of coherence was beating in my chest as I walked towards them and I was smiling at their presence. Imagine my surprise when they kept on doing what came natural. It was like they felt I was no threat. No flapping, squawking or flying. They just carried on as they were and I went on my way, feeling quite fantastic”.
The Soul in question went on to detail how his veterinary practice had leapt to another level because he became so sensitive to the animals that were presented at his practice and thus was able to help them in ways he’d never imagined. All by holding onto and developing his coherence as the Witness as there were no states of inner conflict that were tugging him that way and this. Granted he was a few steps along the Path of Power and it unfolds with a difference for each who develops their own resonance. For him he was always drawn to animals due to their inherent pureness. His interpersonal relationships with humans, however, had always been lacking due to the life he’d lived and various traumatic events. He said:
“It always felt like animals could never hurt me and I wanted the best for them. Once upon a when I was very proud of this achievement but after our conversations I came to see how this was an imbalance. A coping mechanism designed to allow some type of emotional nourishment that never addressed the silently weeping wound within”.
In his case he’d been raised in an environment of neglect where he felt that humans were not to be trusted as they often said one thing but then turned around and did another that usually left him weeping. Your example may not be as dramatic but realize we are all fragmented within as that is the main thing that runs this level of the Game we’re playing by using our Souls as credits. Actually, you can think of the Witness as an aspect of your Soul hence practical metaphysics is what the Path of Power is offering as you get to Know thy Self, beyond all of the illusions and clever tricks designed to keep you within the Mind Made Prison. This state I call Adulteration. Its not even a hypothesis because the truth is obvious when you look at children – the very embodiment of Inner Sense – and how they glow when stepping in. Soon this illumination dims and they, just like their parents before them, fall Victim to the schism of being internally divided and dual within. That spell is hidden within the word “Individual“.
This is the reason why you are one way with your boss, another with your friends and yet more with your kids, partner and pretty much everyone else. All of them are versions of yourself. Masks. False aspects that step in and wrestle away the control of your earthbound vehicle. Each has their own memories, their own whims, their own intent. Can you imagine the huge amount of tension this brings? It truly is the root of most suffering in this realm because if you identify with a piece you cannot comprehend the whole thing. Not for nothing is that word also a homonym for “peace” which itself offers a hint about the severe nature of fragmentation that most accept due to living the life unexamined. If that is the problem then Knowing the Ledge is the solution because that wisdom (once feltsensed) can allow you to make better decisions instead of being subject to the whims of a tyrannical population.
One of the metaphors I often use is that of a kingdom. If there isn’t a constant and benevolent aspect at the helm then chaos surely reigns within. Imagine a load of scared children, each wanting to do something else, and you’ll start to form a clear imagine of what is actually happening within because something happened, way back when, that shattered your coherence and led to the introduction of these false selves that constantly battle for dominance with their often contradictory whims. Know this, all of them have your best interests at heart but, due to the nature of fragmentation, they are often stuck at earlier forms of development and thus only have access to the resources they had, back when. In the case of the vet his father often teased him for being overly sensitive and his mother was quite aloof and distant. He escaped into a fantasy world that was super rich and often talked to his collection of stuffed animals as a way to vent what he felt within. As he grew this passion grew to take over more and more aspects and, to its opposite, he found himself almost totally unable to form any kind of meaningful connection or relationship. This was his main problem and the reason why we met.
“Everyone says I’m attractive. Plenty of women are interested and I’d like to get to know them as well but I find it nearly impossible to trust them“
“Why? Can you think of an example?” I said. He went on to list the details of his latest failed relationship in which the girl complained about his mood swings and how he’d switch from being very caring to totally distant. She really tried to make it work because she really liked him but, at the end, she packed her bags and left after penning a note that said “Get some help. I don’t know what it is but something within you is very, very broken. I can’t take it any more and I wish you all the best”. Needless to say he was heartbroken as he’d often spent nights in bed thinking of all the things he wished he’d said but couldn’t comprehend what made him act like this. This is the nature of the (false) self when one is entirely unaware of the Witness. In that respect this state is akin to becoming a true king from within and thus you deal with these hurt children that are clamoring for attention by integrating them. These steps come a bit further along the Path but I’m sharing them now to offer a hint of what you’re capable, should you wish to direct your attention at the parts that are hurting. Actually, thats an interesting thing because when we first met I asked him to perform a somatic audit which goes a little something like this:
“As you sit there, listening to my voice, breathing, aware of the texture of the clothes against your skin, the pressure of the chair where you are seated and all of the sounds around you, both random and ambient I want you to state out loud whatever it is you’re feeling within”.
He went on to detail a sensation in his abdomen. I asked him to listen and report its details. How big it was, the emotions linked, how it felt, its intent. Basically mapping out another person. Another version of him. He did and, to his surprise, he felt an immense swathe of sadness that washed over him. I instructed him to keep breathing and treat this aspect like he would a child that was complaining. He applied his vast empathy, that he usually saved for the animals he dealt with, to himself. Afterwards he said:
“It was like a huge torrent of emotions were making their presence felt. It wasn’t so much about the girl but actually me, within” as loads of memories and events he’d repressed started coming up to the surface. Later on he came to realize that what was happening was there was a very young and needy part of him that was almost smothering with its need for reassurance that motivated his constant need to check up on his lady friend as well as another, bit older version, that did everything possible to keep her at a distance. Obviously this state of hot and cold switching can be quite alluring initially as the man seems like a mystery but it can also be infuriating as she never knew who’d she’d get as the person that presents could have one of many (hurt) people at the helm. As we progressed he came to realize the nature of this Pattern and it clicked why he was such a workaholic with an obsessive complex that needed everything to be perfect.
“It truly felt like if I could control this and that then things would be perfect”. He wryly grinned, before adding. “Of course, that never happened. And yet the same thing made me excel in my career and created a huge reputation as one who was almost magical when it came to dealing with animals. And yet, privately, my life was a total mess. A constant retread because the women may have changed but they all left saying the same thing. The last one actually got through because I really, really wanted to make it work. She was perfect. She really tried to help but I always felt “What is behind her tenderness? You can’t trust her. Lets keep her at a distance”. Other times, now and then, I felt like opening and sharing a glimpse about certain things and then I’d get obsessed. I had to know where she was, where she went, what she was doing. We had a huge argument because she was ten minutes late and stuck in traffic. I just let rip. I said loads of hurtful things and, oddly, felt really good doing it. For her that was the straw that broke the back of our already strained relationship so she left”.
This is all so common because 81% of the world is well adjusted to a special type of social sickness that prioritizes a near total lack of Self Knowledge that generates all types of conflicts and problems. On a side note, schizophrenics can actually detect these fragmented selves and their presence but tend to decode it via hallucination where they said “She is not my sister, something else is present thats pretending to be like her but isn’t“. Of course, saying this out loud to a medical profession usually ends up with a depot injection but that is entirely because they too are ignorant of what truly is happening in this realm. Its an epidemic. The whole planet is sick but, just like the Emperor who was naked, only those with Inner Sense can comprehend the true sketch. Let me give you an example:
A baby is happy and cooing. One of his mothers friends comes to visit and he instantly starts screaming as she tries to shower affection on him. The lady is embarrassed. “I don’t know what came over him” says the childs parent as she cradles him with reassurance. The moment she leaves the boy is back to smiling. What happened? Well, because babies (and all of us, at least in potential) dwell in a state of Inner Sense when they come across someone that is intensely fragmented they signal their discomfort at their presence. Why? Because they can feel within what the other is hiding. Actually, this is an interesting tangent because not everyones aspects are sharp and jagged, like this example. Some are akin to torn papers that house fragments of their self written in a childs scrawl whilst others have these bubbles within which they build idealized (but also false) versions of themselves at the exclusion of the rest. The vet was like this. Within his illusion that allowed the most close to genuine version of himself to express itself only animals were allowed access because he’d written, back when, that “Humans can’t be trusted. You never know what they’re thinking and when they’ll switch it up. Best to keep your distance“. This aspect, or hurt person, lived in a realm that was far more sharp and jagged. Totally devoid of his usual tenderness. Between these two posts was he battered and this state of division generally bought him immense sadness. The more he was starved on one side the more he shared in his practice. I’m sure you can see the link between this and most workaholics, yes? Social media, in all of its forms, is entirely built upon soothing this coping mech because people can present an image they ask you to buy in so they too can pretend its the real thing. Like I said, the whole planet is sick. Thing is, what will they do when the little boy, fueled by Inner Sense, points out the true state of the Emperor and they are forced to question whats within? Will they die on the lie as they fight to protect what makes them miserable or are they intelligent enough to consider a new perspective then reality test it to see if its possible to dwell in a state of coherence instead?
The vet took to the Path like water agrees with a fish because its something he’d quietly pondered but never truly grokked the significance or depth of the schism within. Its why I’ve said you can’t change a thing until you accept what is. After that you develop a state of discernment, align with the Witness (that makes all possible) and get to reparenting these broken and fragmented selves. This causes a huge release of energetics that are no longer invested in resistance as they prefer the better option the Path of Power represents. In his case he’d had random bouts of sciatic pain that totally vanished after doing the Knowledge because he came to comprehend the body is actually the subconscious and this is where the hurt children live and wait for their turn at the helm as they struggle to express themselves in ways that often totally contradict what it is they’re actually seeking.
Now that you know this, even without any further guidance, I’m certain you’ll be able to spot these masks when they drop onto your awareness. Next time that happens you will realize “Wait a minute. This is just a set of options. One way of looking at things. I am and am not this for I truly am the Witness that makes all things possible“. Breathe a bit, pay attention to your state, notice any patterns of tension or habitual ways of thinking. It often helps to shake it off a little bit, let your spine wriggle, and bring your attention to your chest (for that is the home of the Witness and one of the Three Kingdoms that we’ll uncover elsewhen). I’ll leave you with another comment from the vet that he said at the end of one of our sessions:
“Why does nobody else talk about this? Why is there such a wall of silence around the fact that there are hundreds of versions of me within and all of them are fighting for their moment at the helm, even though their goals often contradict and cause loads of stress and unhappiness? Whatever we’ve done before, alone or as a collective, obviously isn’t working. Who is keeping this hidden? To what end? What the hell is truly going on this realm or, as you’ve said, the Game we’re playing by inserting our Souls as credits?”.
That, my friend, is how it feels to be back in a state of Inner Sense as you start asking the questions that usually send most of the Adulterated shrieking in another direction as they attempt to implement solutions that have only ever beget more problems and conflict. In that respect the wars and things you see that ravage this planet are simply projections of what is actually happening within but that is a deeper aspect that becomes Self evident as one does the Knowledge hence the axiom:
You are another me, together we.
Make better decisions.
Till we meet again
