I couldn’t help but notice your pain… You know the rest, yes?
The range of innerG we decode via this spell is pretty immense and its also remarkably common. Forget about the surface and image people present because if you looked under the surface I’d be fairly confident in the bet that over fifty percent of their existence falls within this wavelength. There are good parts and bad. There are also worst as well because the most intense hits are often clocked when we’re still in single digits and thus they are beyond recollection for many as these imperiences make up the shaky foundations they’d rather not admit that they then erect the castle made of sand and held together with wishful thinking their (false) self offers them as a way of ignoring the root cause of the problem.
Time and time again I’ve seen countless people seeking to rub a stain from a mirror that they don’t click is actually a photograph they carry within. This is how slick and deceptive this process is because folk will do the same things, again and again, expecting different outcomes but are loathe to change anything. Why? Because those shifting winds would bring the castle down falling and with it goes the entire persona and fable they’ve invested in as the way it is. The ironic aspect of this is that if they were to let that happen and stop clinging on so tight to their suffering and methods that obviously aren’t working they’d find the freedom they seek springing from within with its familiar newness. This is why I use the coal to diamond metaphor as well because the fundamentals are identical. Did you know that when it comes to these stones those that are filled with inclusions and webs are akin to humans under immense amounts of tension that won’t relent (nor will they shift) whereas the best cut and most splendiferous gems are optimally refractive and sparkle with brilliance that is truly breathtaking. Be real, which one would you pick? Now be even more honest. Are you willing to do the Knowledge if it means potentially destroying everything you hold sacrosanct but obviously does nothing else but build a life you mainly detest but tolerate due to a lack of options available to your internal OS?
Its not an easy task but then life is complicated but it is something that once mastered is never forgotten again as you become fluent in body language versus just accepting labels handed to a fragment of your Self inside your head that believes whats said from a state of numbness. See, we stop feeling in increments and that means the less pain you feel you also limit your potential happiness. Its a very strange, yet precise, system that is akin to slipping on some surgical gloves at first before switching it to something more thicker and padded. By the time most folks are twenty six summers into their stretch they are toting welders mitts and generally can’t tell the difference even though they obviously feel less now than they did.
The silent epidemic. The emotional plague. The madness of generations which is inherited then passed onto the next due to a near total lack of introspection and mass energetic ignorance. Call it whatever you wish but the world around you is what it built and every single one of out here is part of the problem as we individually project the collective and then absorb it back in. Think two girls, one cup but instead its 8 billion Souls, one planet and it clicks why “suck cess” is what you’re seeking and how many must consume excrement in order to bring in the pay. What do you crave? Its emotional intensity at the end of the day. The feeling of being present, here, now. Rich and vivid.
The most amazing thing is how many more highways and byways of consciousness start opening and blooming like the lotus once we address the filth within. I’ve seen people who always wanted to dance but felt they had no rhythm bust a jig, the chronic loner and social reject actually get a girlfriend and the girl who constantly messed up every relationship, especially if she really liked the guy, and then turned around to blame them when it was obvious there was only ever one constant. In that respect life will use pain to focus our attention but we, as a collective, have shirked personal responsibility for so long that its pretty much a global tradition. This is what erects boundaries, creates enemies and installs schisms inside the minds of even those who believe ninety nine point nine the same thing. Its indicative of this split, itself something that was etched into the collective unconscious by our ancestors who survived times so wild and unpredictable that the continued presence of man on this planet is nigh on a miracle.
We are the broken children of man, hence mankind. Sort of the same, but different. The pathologies exhibit themselves on every continent but we tend to see an immense uptick in certain locations and people versus others which is quite interesting but beyond the scope of this missive. Over history as well the same Pattern is seen as there is an ebb and flow to the amount of humanity most people are exhibiting. At the current moment it feels like its the lowest its ever been an this can be easily judged via the outpouring of creativity and artistry as this is the beacon I’ve used previously. People, en masse, have handed themselves over to tech as the god of this age and things have got so staid when it comes to newness from a purely human perspective that it makes one wonder if its not all just unfolding as intended. Actually, let me digress for a bit:
Its quite difficult for most people to truly embody a previous version of themselves as the body continually lives in the present and thus tints their perspective with its own experiences. This is actually the root of the problem as well as solution as well. As you shake off these imperiences with your steps on the Path of Power whilst introspecting and rewriting your internal OS one of the most interesting facets is revivification. Quite akin to green shoots popping through the ground that was previously frozen it can be quite painful if you resist but the most fascinating thing is the recollection of previous events that are relived like one was actually present. Them coming back in one whole chunk is the not the most common, in my imperience. Instead you may see someone feeling absolutely nothing as huge rivers of tears are rolling down their cheeks and they sit there wondering “Whats all this about then?” as they capture this torrent of emotions pouring from their eyelids. “Not long later I was watching a show and this advert kicked in where this little boy was playing with a dog and suddenly I found myself shrieking and screaming as my throat entered a tight constriction along with the awareness of immense belts of tension across my chest and neck. It was ridiculously intense, I felt like I was dying but I stayed Centered in Self and let my breathing ease in to a state of embodiment and get comfortable with this. Later on that night as I was drifting the last piece of the puzzle popped into my head and I remembered that my friend had got a new pet and had called me around to play with it. I forget to check the gate and it ran out into the street and got hit by a wagon. Her father was dragging me from running and I was screaming at what I’d seen. I felt so horrible and guilty”.
This woman had no idea about this memory. It had been erased entirely from her “story of me” and yet it was one of the most important things that defined pretty much everything and was the reason she’d got a rep as an ice queen because she never again allowed herself to feel the correlate to her suppression and thus became the archetypal career woman that has everything society says is great but, internally, each day felt like a living hell.
Thats how powerful the mind is. The ancestors knew this well which is why at puberty there would be an intense ritual that was often quite harrowing as it could produce life or death that they anticipated with a heady mix of thrill and trepidation. Did you notice that? In order to mix both it means they must have been Centered in Self as that is the original non dual state and what is needed to transcend the limits you were unaware you expected. We do not have this. We also look at these societies are primitive because we have flat screens and artificial flavors and preservatives. Thing is when it comes to being in touch with their humanity they were leagues above (and below, both ends, remember?) than we are in the present. A part of me suspects this is intended. Its too widespread, across too many cultures and too well implemented for it to be entirely natural. That I don’t believe in coincidence because things are made to happen in this realm with a specific outcome. Usually via the model of the Hegelian Dialectic which says “I’ll give you a problem, you have a reaction and then you’ll be lead to the solution before we do it all again“. The reason why I bring this up is I’ve been on the net since the early Nineties but I was very, very late to get a phone with a screen. I only actually got one when it became an unavoidable necessity as there was no other way to get online where I be.
One of my vents happened from a time before this and what struck me during the experience (aside from the release of the repression) was how different my mind felt to be within at that particular moment. Its levels and ways of functioning were so radically different than me at the present that I wished I could’ve delved in to hold that state in order to add more detail to my comparison. An example I can give is pre COVID your mindset was totally different to what it is at the moment. If I could flick a switch and roll back to a previous version of your OS it would be exceedingly obvious whats been clipped, tipped, edited and flipped as the contrast is Self evident. Its just one Adulteration over another but I found the dramatic shifts in perception, data processing, embodiment, biomarkers and the rest so immediate and visceral it really made me think about how correct was when Bruce Lee said “Be water, my friend” as your awareness takes the shape of the vessel in the moment and thus renders itself invisible when its your true life force in full effect.
Whatever life is, it certainly is complex and yet also totally simple. Pain is a great example of this because we have so many different types of labels that point at the same fundamental innerG being played in various keys of intensity upon your nervous system. To avoid this realization we’ll do pretty much anything but one of the most amazing things I found is you may have, say, an obsessive compulsive who remembered to forget the day he was in bed and heard his parents arguing so he crept down the steps to listen. As he sat there in the darkness to their reigned in yells he heard his father say “Listen, if you keep this up then we’re getting divorced. I’ve had enough of it”. Right there, at that very moment, the foundations of his life crumbled and things were never the same again. At first it became little things that got his attention as the magical thinking filled his head. “If I make sure the curtains are the exact distance apart with some precision then they’ll stay together and things will be perfect” before evolving into “I must eat all of my foods in order of alphabetical ranking with the chews correlating to the amount of vowels in their names” and other such things. He was, as expected, totally unaware of this and, not being a stranger to self help, actually managed to find some solutions that helped him be not as neurotic and such a mess within. It terms of his professional field his conscientiousness bought him lots of remuneration and credit as none were as dedicated or as talented as him because each commission would be completed with a surgical precision. That would itch the scratch before he needed to do it again and each task became more and more intricate as did his chain of suppression which had led him to buy a laser alignment device he’d use to ensure everything was exactly as expected when it came to his soft furnishings.
These are the kind of things people never admit and most, genuinely, don’t think its a problem as “I’m not obsessive compulsive. I’ve just got a certain way of doing things that is correct”. See the lengths the (false) self will go to in order to prevent the realization of the energetics that were edited from your awareness and now dwell inside your subconscious?
We are all broken like this in this realm. All of us. Most dare not speak about it but it becomes quite obvious in relationships, especially the first time you go on vacation as then you see the person in their element, up close and personal. That and folk are so good at pretending, so believable in their performance that they can even suppress huge amounts of things until they’ve lured in their partner to a contract before they switch it up and reveal the semi-real then. Even then there is still plenty of suppression as they are hiding from themselves.
With all of that said pain is still a pretty amazing emotion as there are two octaves of expression of the melody it brings into your awareness. One is the above which we have detailed and thats the lower resonance. When played optimally it facilitates immense healing as it develops a new strength most are truly surprised was within along with the requisite growth (on many levels, often in the same instant) which creates a higher state of awareness via more fluid embodiment and this brings a far deeper connection – with others and themselves – as they are now decoding a far greater spectrum of resonance. That, once again, is what the ancients meant when they said the lotus blossoms in the filth and yet is unaffected by what created it. This is the process of transcendence and its something that once you’ve felt it the nature of the (false) self becomes exceedingly obvious and the rest of your life is about striving to become the most authentic because a) that voice in your head vanishes b) feelings ring true instead and c) its all so vivid that the metaphor of the welders glove that was slipped over your senses to numb your potential becomes quite obvious.
Till we meet again
