Truth, in this realm, is one of those things often mentioned but rarely met. People are too busy with lives as unexamined as they are inauthentic to ever stop and recollect but you, my friend, are different. Welcome to how to keep it real. A simple lesson with earthshaking effects. All it takes is a pad and pen, a few moments of quiet reflection and then let rip:
Write down how you truly feel about you. From end to end, the first thing that pops into your head as well as what you have to dig into your chest to admit. Leave no stone unturned, there is no judgement here on the quest for Self realization but one must see the lay of the land as it is before planning an ascent. I mean, if your take off was from a sandy beach compared to concrete there would be effects, yes? Same thing with your internal realm. As you are doing those I’d like you to note any resistance or physical sensations, preferably using another ink. You should be, by now, familiar with the child within and thus feel free to engage them in the narrative as well as various bits and pieces from your imagination in case you draw a blank when it comes to most peoples favorite topic.
You can pretend you are sitting there, with pad and pen, then the eighteen year old version of you walks in and says what they said about the current person. Then note down your reactions to this along with other observations as this technique is very powerful as is the empty chair method mentioned in another article. After you have plumbed your depths or are surprised by what reflects back in ink then move onto another topic:
Your home, your situation, your finances, family, friends, work and the rest. How do you truly feel about the people around you? If you have children note your honest observations about their development in comparison to your expectations and then use this to loop back onto your own relationship with your parents, back when, as well as in the present moment. Add into this your concepts of the divine, religion and such things. Basically we are going all out in rendering your internal OS in ink and thus we can critically examine a lot of things that, for most, have remained unchecked since they day they were first penned.
I know, it can seem scary. For some its quite painful to reexamine old things hence why I asked you to note the sudden appearance of psychosomatic ills each time you sit down to push the pen or the nature of the distractions your mind starts dangling. Anything but undoing the threads it uses to suspend you as a meat puppet as that move toward liberation is a threat to its dominance and thus its not you that sweats but the (false) self at the helm that pretends in absence of pure Inner Sense. A tip I will give is to be impersonal, almost like you are looking at someone else or from a third person perspective so you state the name of the character in question much like the distance that comes when one realizes they’re dreaming or being asked to imagine they are something far greater, more powerful and subtle that is actually caught up in the illusion of “being human”.
Scale your emotions on a one to ten as side notes for certain observations, provide details as well as family resonance and where certain behaviors and attitudes were generated along with how they affect the present moment. Note what causes you to fly off the handle and where you attempt over compensation. Really get down to the bits that are uncomfortable, the hidden regrets, things you miss and wish you’d done different. Also, on the flip, note those you aced, the moments that make you grin and examine the reason. For example:
A woman when tasked with this challenge came back with a wall of text but most of it referred to someone else. Either what she did for her parents, in detail, or her kids accomplishments but very little about her Self. As I rejected her deposit and told her to take it back to the table and sketch another narrative a different pic presented as she was a raging narcissist and thus there was very little within for her life was all about the image she sends. Whats amazing is that was the first time she’d ever realized what it was she was doing as, up until then, she’d lived on autopilot and it was all without thinking. Not saying she had a major epiphany, changed her ways or such things because that did not happen. Instead she shrugged her shoulders and said:
“That is who I am and I quite like it. The end” and went back doing what she did best which was image building. Another dude was quite religious and was literally beside himself when he finally admitted his faith was built on layers of dread and all his prayer was an attempt to ensure he avoids Hell due to what was drummed into him and thus he wasn’t pious for a good reason but due to (false) self interest that was based on flawed concepts he’d inherited from his parents about the divine and salvation hence Know thy Self was an immense step for him as his life long high blood pressure started diving when he was no longer under such immense stress.
Such are the benefits of keeping it real in the killing fields because the Game takes no prisoners but has 8 billion living hostages that dwell in a state of ignorance about their true power and strength. This authenticity inventory can be quite revealing but I urge you to keep it to your Self and not make it an open topic just yet because the further one does progress and up their resolution the more we tend to uncover things that may make one uncomfortable and they need to be digested in private and processed – especially if they came up from the hand that was left behind in the past and the child within shares something of which you were ignorant but then start recollecting in parts. This is also why I request people start keeping a dream journal as well as this deal enlivens the subconscious and it can’t wait to pitch in with its vivid contributions that may or may not make any sense when you’re first learning its language. A word on this:
Note not just the images that present but also the mood, emotion, sensation and as much details as you can handle as it may link to other things as you comprehend your own modes of communication that hit like a straight line in Tetris that melts a blockage you never suspected was linked to suppressed emotions which this entire process is really good at unmasking.
Why are you doing what you’re doing? How do you feel about it? What do you truly rate your current level of freedom? What is your base emotion that feels like its activated most as standard? Where do you rate your intelligence, looks and such things? What about your emotional nature? Is it direct or suppressed? Any foibles and addictions? What about fetishes? Do you get what you seek in bed or do you keep things hidden or unexpressed? How do you feel about god and your relationship if one exists? If it doesn’t examine that as well and see what made you come to that conclusion.
This area alone can be immensely revealing and I’ve seen people sigh with relief about finally admitting they had some suspicions about this old time superstition (their words, not mine) but dared not express for what it would represent and how people would think of them. Luckily for them there are no limits in my head. No judgement as well because thats a trait of the (false) self that needs to use a load of cheap tricks to keep its position at the helm and thus its most treacherous and hates being unmasked like this. Watch how easily you “forget” to take stock of your situation or think “Yes, I must remember this and do this when next I’m free” only to skip over it entirely. This is how one awakens the Warrior within for only Inner Sense can stalk and kill the Adulteration that is mans true Opponent and, at this moment, he’s claimed billions of Victims around this realm as many of them are invested, unchecked, in the narrative it presents and thus it hates all forms of gnosis of which this is a most powerful imperiment so I’d advise you to get going, now, this instant.
There is a more advanced version of this that involves noting each observation and utterance in your head but that can overwhelm one who is still a poor Witness to the process of reality creation so lets create the Path with one step using the principle of Incremental Betterment as you start pushing the pen to reveal the realness within that was previously hidden underneath the (false) self most accept as them.
Till we meet again
