Since I wandered off the Path of Power into the Valley of the Plebs its been quite intriguing to see the types of tricks the crappy version of me plays upon myself to feel better about where I am as it attempts to make me forget where I’ve been and who I used to be. Another thing is I crave the screen like a baby does a teat as it helps to ease the immense amount of anxiety that comes from being incoherent within aka the mind and body disconnection. Third is I excel at setting myself small, safe (but often ridiculously complex) challenges so I can look back at a win as the rest of my life slides downhill.
Its been interesting to say the least because you, reading this, have no other barometer of comparison other that the version of you you are and can always recollect being but for me its an immense downshift. Its also quite eye opening as these behaviors are obviously preprogrammed in as coping mechanisms that modern society seems to not only exploit but feed as well. Great for business. Bad for individuation and the mental health that brings as it seems to lure you in to a state of digital connectedness as it isolates more and more parts of you from your Self.
I’m no stranger to the inside of my mind and its wiles because I’ve perceived reality as it stands without its lens and the contrast is immense but this is the first time I’ve regressed to this depth. What started off of a small imperiment has became a full blown addiction in creating, maintaining and sustaining the most mediocre version of myself possible whilst using as many distractions as I can get to prevent me from realizing this. Here’s my ideas on the hows and whys of this process:
Our brains are actually three tiered affairs that specialize in their own thing. One keeps the breath and blood flowing (survival at its most basic), the other generates emotions and the broad vision of your inner realm (feelings, drives and motivation) whilst the upper deck handles the executive functions like being creative, letting your imagination do its thing and all of the fun things. The way I can describe it is they work like cups which you fill with the voltage of bio-electricity within therefore one the first layer is good (ie you’ve got food, clothing and shelter with no immediate threat of death) the next one can be filled so you now birth that animal state of awareness in which you’ve got Self motivated actions and the rudiments of recognizing the rhyme behind the reason of what you’re doing. Not saying you’re stupid but this realm is more like a maelstrom of emotion in contrast to the loftier vantage afforded from the next step at the Pre-frontal Cortex.
Now before whilst I was still engaged in the methods of energy cultivation that the Path of Power brings there were clear lines of communication between my limbs, torso, head and the rest as the mind-body existed along one smooth continuum in which messages were flowing back and forth in real time, each moment. One of the side effects of this was I could do things like feel my bones, communicate with my organs and soothe my Central Nervous System in times of stress by Centering my Self aka returning to that zero-point of equilibrium. For those who may be thinking “What tea eff?” upon reading this let me share some times you’ve done the same, maybe unwittingly, so you can relate:
Imagine a day when you’ve worked hard. So hard that its not just the mental but physical which has came to its limit. Maybe you’re an office worker who had to dig a ditch at Six AM on your urban redevelopment after a contractor went missing and failure was not an option. Totally different to tapping keys whilst staring at a screen but the loss was too big to contemplate so you roll up your shirt sleeves and get to working filthy. Many times you wanted to quit but there were no other resources to fall back on but yourself. Eventually the job is done and everything progresses on schedule as you roll yourself home, get washed and crawl into bed. At that moment, just before you drift off, you’ll be acutely aware of your bones and may even feel them pulsating as the marrow dances within because of the uncharacteristic exertion which led to opening channels of communication between your awareness and your flesh. This loop you used to maintain and override each time your arms said “I’m tired” or your back ached to signal its discontent were acknowledged then repurposed when seen through the bigger lens of the potential shipwreck that could happen if you don’t handle this. The “afterglow”, shall we say, may even last up until breakfast because you’ll be far more aware of exactly how much strength it takes to cart around your flesh hence “Whats the matter with me?” is exceedingly accurate.
The vestigial traces of organs speaking are peppered throughout the language with such things as “My heart wasn’t in it” “My gut feeling says…” and “I’m in two minds“. This is because what was well known in old times, and modern man has been made to forget, is that the organs have their own intelligence, awareness and can communicate as well to those who listen. To achieve this first you need to generate a state of silence within which means you actually get to listen to what is underneath that incessant chattering in your head you think is natural when its actually a distraction from mastering the Three Kingdoms aka your head, chest and abdomen. For example anger and frustration live within the liver and gallbladder hence when you see that mild mannered accountant who always seemed so quiet and timid flip his lid after one too many drinks you now know its because he activated what was present yet suppressed from his regular awareness as the alcohol increased the circulation and thus gave vent to what his chronic tension did its best to keep hidden from his awareness. Its also linked to vision hence “blind drunk” is common as is the photosensitivity upon rising after a night of imbibing.
As for the Central Nervous System anyone who has had the kind of orgasm that feels like riding the crest of a wave of timeless pleasure knows that when they reintegrate in the afterglow of this imperience its akin to feeling like a very wrinkled cloth that was made of rough cotton is now perfectly pressed and feels like the finest silk against your skin, as well as being ravenous. This is because the body can either be in fight or flight or stay and play and the CNS modulates this switch.
Ordinarily people engage in various activities to elicit these states but the Path of Power is all about cutting out the middle man and going directly to the source to generate what you seek via a better state of coherence. After all they’re your organs, your bones, your nerves. Why shouldn’t you hear when they speak? Using the previous cup analogy of one fills the next so the following state is released; this is why people smoke weed because the influx of THC eases the kidneys and the fear they hold within along with various forms of neuromuscular tension to keep this suppressed. Its also why you get the paranoid trips and people who used to blaze religiously but can’t now since it will have them switching the curtains and holding their breath like a nervous wreck. I could go on and list everything else but you get the point of this tangent, yes?
Without the practices I’d daily engage in my Witness was now held hostage by just trying to survive. Forget thriving. That isn’t an option when you energy levels are in the ditch. Its also why caffeine is such a popular thing because it provides a measured jolt to the kidneys, liver, heart, stomach etc.. to get them pumping without stirring up the depths of the energies kept therein. Take the same people off this substance and watch where their emotional barometer swings and you’ll see clearly the truth about what I’m saying. But that wasn’t the most interesting part of all of this:
I needed to restart my practices to build my energy reserves, nourish my organs, stabilize my nervous system, Center my awareness in Self whilst extending the presence of my Witness across its Three Kingdoms in a state of optimal coherence from which I usually rest. Thing is this wasn’t happening as entropy (and a few other factors) had me in their grip and most certainly did not want to relent. This is like someone who always goes running, first thing in the AM or always has a drink upon returning home in the PM. These habits are ingrained and they build feedback loops based on your participation that generate the foundations and stable points of reference for the rest of your existence. If the runner couldn’t he’d be climbing the walls instead and if he slipped, fell and then was forced to sit still for a while he would not be the same person at all you knew when he was still training. Same with the drinker. He doesn’t have to be an alcoholic, just someone who ends his shift with a nightcap to chill. Bet he doesn’t even notice its the sigh that escapes from his lips as he takes his first sip after going through his routine that is ingrained and meticulous as comes home from the office, turns off his cell, showers, grabs a beverage and remote then proceeds to chill with a few drinks until its bed then up again.
If one segment, lets say he comes home and his water has been cut off for some reason, is out of whack the rest doesn’t hit like it did and tomorrow people will notice. If the next day his TV stops working and the day after he finds out his favorite beverage has been withdrawn from all the shelves… You get the message.
We use a lot of these support structures based on external aspects and substances to keep our inner realm in check. Its very much like gardening except you’re just trimming the surface level weeds and not ripping out the root and step. This is the Path of Power difference and also why so many folks are petrified of being alone by themselves with no distractions.
Now my anxiety was ramping up immensely because I knew this was supposed to be a temporary thing. A minor imperiment so I had better knowledge of the Slaves suffering and thus which techniques and processes should be highest on the list to assist them in awakening the Warrior within. Know one thing:
Society is built upon the back of keeping you kneeling at the feet of midgets in a state of weakened low energy because then you’ll engage in loads of different behaviors and rationalizations to hide this from your Self awareness. I knew that before but not like this. Now I see exactly how powerful this process is thanks to the billions of adherents who run their energetic circuits like this. Not for nothing are the digits of the nation that is used to hold you back immense because the path to actualization is akin to pushing a rock up a hill as the world smacks you in the shins and throws banana skins over the areas you intend to tread. They really have set not only us against ourselves but you against your Self hence individual meaning “Inwardly Divided and Dual”.
I found this out real well because there were the aspects of me that knew exactly how it felt to spring out of bed with a grin, feeling totally refreshed after a night of vivid guidance via my dreams and knowing just what I had to do as I hopped in to the upward groove that Path of Power brings. The other, devitalized but much closer at hand aspect however, that said “Why bother?” as it automatically picked up my phone and peered at the screen for solace.
The process I mentioned previously of Centering in Self is essential to progress when it comes to true development because its all about balance. That ubiquitous black mirror provides something almost like this but not quite with its presence as it generates a sense of calmness as you loose yourself in the moment and thus temporarily forget the tension and anxiety that is wracking your system due to crappy sleep habits, the stress of living and the bonds of ignorance you heap upon yourself.
There goes the rest of the day.
At some point I’d rally, rebel, rouse the troops and say “Enough! What the heck are you doing? You know what to do and how to do it so lets get on with it right this instant” as I would attempt to set my intent with a newfound determination. Know what happened next? I’d somehow set myself another challenge and take that on instead. I’m the quintessential hacker in that regard because I’ve always taken whatever is and then seen what else it can do if I change a few things. In many ways this train of thought is what led me to discovering the station at which the Path of Power lives because its just the same inquisitiveness to go beyond preset limits to find out for yourself that dwells in the hearts of children.
I picked up an old project I hadn’t looked at for over a decade that had previously been an obsession. Something where there was no problem but I had to find a solution anyway by making it more efficient, interesting and (most importantly) do what I intended. It had fallen by the wayside as the one that got away. Nothing vital or life changing in any sense. Just one of them things that would be quite cool to prove to myself that my intuition was correct and that the laws of the program could be bent to my will instead to generate much better effects than originally intended.
By now I had far more experience, a broader sense of intuition as well as various bits and pieces of progress I’d never stitched together since placing this old challenge on the shelf and moving onto more concrete things. Now I was back in the land of distractions designed to keep me from realizing who I be and the engine was running at full steam as it was powered by avoidance and anxiety to achieve a small win in the face of the such a long standing downward trajectory.
I set to this task with a level of focus and dedication that would amaze the old me as much as it did the current mediocre version. I was in the zone. My thoughts were fluid and cogent and it almost felt like that same flow state the Path of Power begets when regularly practiced but, deep down, I knew I was fooling myself because that wasn’t this. It was a pale imitation akin the link between masturbation and sex because both bring friction but the mood is totally different and I knew I was F-ing myself. And yet I couldn’t quit.
I was addicted.
I simply had to figure out the solution to this problem that doesn’t exist but I had created, way back when, as a challenge to myself that was gladly accepted before being rediscovered again as I strolled through the desolate lands known as the Valley of the Plebs as the crappiest version of my Self.
What was so interesting was it allowed me a way to project and deal with my anxiety. The problem became the solution and not the fact that my energetic systems were an incoherent mess. Each time I made progress I felt a rush of endorphins hit my system that spurred me to keep going.
As depleted as I was I was still able to draw links between gamers craving achievements and folks peering at their phones to see who is paying them attention as the twenty first centuries global Pavlovian experiment does its thing as the midgets walk around rubbing their palms with glee as its all going so swimmingly.
Then one day, today as I type this, I did it. Not only did I do it but I pushed it beyond the limit and created an all singing, all dancing variant that was way beyond my imagination and talent back when I first set the challenge. Know what happened next?
My anxiety came roaring back with a vengeance because there were no more projections for me to place it in and attempt to deal with the illusion of progress that was being used to trick my nervous system into releasing treats. It felt horrible. I guess this is why Alexander wept, yes? What does that say about him? About anyone driven by conquest or its far less attractive but much more common little cousin:
Be honest with your Self as I have been in this text and you’ll see that a vast percent of your lifes energies go into doing dumb little things and not the big challenge you wish to beat but feel to tired to get off your knees to go chase. Thing is now you have gained a far greater awareness into this process and when it happens next you will be like “Wait a minute? I know where this ends” and thus stop the process by imposing your will to not engage. Next you’ll feel a huge upsurge in emotion, usually the negative at which point its quite good to stamp your feet like a kid because this discharges excess energy from your spinal cord down your legs.
Thats amazing, isn’t it? How no one taught them this but they all intuitively realize that frustration sticks around the sacrum due to impinged movements of their energetics and how their heels contain the paths that link therefore short, sharp pressures create the effect of grounding.
Thats is another Path of Power thing hence be ye as children because its all about unlearning the crap the System put in which is what keeps you kneeling at the feet of midgets as you beg for more and more distractions.
All in all its been very interesting. Not only did I prove to my Self that my old skills in modifying zeros and ones to do my bidding are not only still present and correct, able to rise to the challenge, but also far better now than they were then. It also highlighted why I moved over to hacking this realm, my awareness and flesh instead because those challenges are far more important and way more beneficial when it comes to fixing the mess we’re within because way back when I was still tapping on keys from the A to PM I realized:
“There is something hollow and artificial about this” as I recollected my first inkling of the fakeness that I felt underpinned this realm. It had been there since a jit and at various times I’d been quite obsessed with it or watched it recede as other things took precedence but it was always present.
I went from playing games for amusement to hacking them to learn how to break the rules instead and that flipped into living what they said was called life up to birthing the concept called the Game of Souls which is what you’re within as read this text that is streaming out of my awareness via a keys and into yours thanks to the screen and that ubiquitous black mirror that makes its presence felt whilst staying hidden. They say thats the hallmark of good business, you know? Being a good middleman. In that case their turnover must be booming because its set up so well.
Life makes people anxious. Screens ease the feels they’d rather not perceive so add in side quests like getting likes, fake friends, projecting an image or just moving around pixels as each day in the Real World keeps slipping by as you amuse yourself to death. Its such an efficient tool of enSlavement and an immense improvement over the ruse known as bio-survival tickets aka the coin of the realm that allows you to pretend you can purchase freedom whilst simultaneously denying you’ve been enSlaved by the System.
See that? It feels like I’m taking steps to embody my higher Self again? Whats that? Did you hear it? On the horizon, it stands beaming. Thats the Path of Power calling. “My friend, so glad to make your acquaintance!”.
Till we meet again
