The biggest mistake I ever made cost me chunks of my health, wealth and sanity along with my potential for happiness in my younger daze. That isn’t a spelling mistake. In exchange I got a load of stress, arguments and empty promises. At the time it felt like arm wrestling an octopus and I was so hell bent on “winning” by changing them because it seemed easier to climb that mountain spewing flame than scale my own internal molehill of ignorance of which this relationship was a reflection. The simple truth of the matter is this:
That person, as another aspect of my Self projected out in this realm, was simply there to provide a hint. They were, in effect, furnishing me with a subquest to unlock my potential and level up, should I rise to challenge. Instead of picking up on this and moving accordingly I was content to hear the sound of one hand clapping, which felt like a loop of slaps across my face and wondering why the other person never changed. That, I now see, is an insane as looking in the mirror and expecting to see another face then being dismayed when its the same old same old you’ve know since back in the days. Like an ignorant, angry Narcissus I raged at this image which did its best to push my buttons and force my mind within to look at what was actually being pressed and why it was so sensitive.
In one sense I was addicted. I couldn’t leave if I wished and the other I knew this was something profound and important but just couldn’t get a handle on it as my attention was ignoring the true cause whilst focusing on the effect of my ignorance. Actually this same paradigm was playing out in a few areas of my life, each with their own projections and I’m sad to say I failed the test on many, many occasions with so many different people. The end result was always the same:
Arguments, false promises to change and doing what they’ll do anyway to irritate.
Till one day, it hit me like a train of thought that pulled up to a new station I didn’t know existed and offered a fresh lens upon a stale situation as new options started unfolding within:
“Wait a minute, why on Earth am I doing this? The definition of madness is doing the same thing again and again whilst expecting different and this particular bone of contention is as consistent and persistent in this irritating modes of behavior that I can get. The question is why am I participating?”.
It was like light shone in the darkness and its thirst was quenched. Suddenly the plateau upon which I’d been stuck leveled up via a spiral and I was offered a new perspective on the Game and how to play it. I walked away from said person, no explanation needed. “Whats the point?” I thought as I realized there was no way to reason with what amounts to an NPC that constantly repeats the same script and I was too ignorant to get the hint that they were actually handing me a subquest and had, instead, spent so much time and effort on attempting to convince them about why they needed to change to make me happy.
How crazy is this? If its ringing any bells then just leave. Drop them. They too have probably been trying to teach you a lesson and failure is not an option so they will keep saying or doing the same things until you deal with the root cause and its consequence:
Your internal realm and thinking as well as relation to the energies within. You are what you attract. That itself is a huge hint about the true nature of consciousness. The Game wants you to win and is actually conspiring to ensure this happens with every single moment and interaction so why not take some time out for introspection as you trace the common elements, the argument retreads and the “Oh, this ones totally different from my ex!” statement that drips from your lips until reality kicks in and you’re being forcefed leftovers again.
To say it was liberating was an understatement. This process of digging out molehills was also quite fascinating as, once upon a when, I was quite aggressive and looked for people and places to would encourage a vent by kicking someones head in as they too attempted the same thing. Good times were had by all who lived by this “Pint and a fight” mantra that was exceedingly common around the ends I was bought up in and it was amazingly uncanny how in a club packed to the brim with receptive women – those who desired to F something – would get it whilst those who wanted to F something up would also get it. Creation and destruction, different expressions of the same thing. Where do you sit on this wavelength, at any given moment? That really is what its all about in this realm and it goes far beyond any external types of relationships and interactions because, once again, you only ever deal with projected aspects of Self that are attempting to highlight your ignorance of this process that underpins all of creation. Comprehend:
You are another me, together we.
Was on the road, out of town, and hit up this club for the evening to see what was kicking but before that I’d been spending a lot of time upon this quest to eject these molehills from my consciousness. I talk a lot with my hands and am quite animated which is Self evident to anyone who has Witnessed my presence. In this particular example I was macking this chica I’d just met when I accidentally slapped this dudes drink all over what he was wearing without looking as my attention was focused elsewhen.
There was a moment. Things could’ve gone left very quick and I’ll admit my old Pattern was still present as the moles in my subconscious started to recreate that old hill I’d just demolished via the power of introspection and Self realization. What can I say? Old habits die hard ergo the price of mental freedom is constant vigilance because the greatest Opponent hides in the last place you’d expect:
“Wait” I said “My fault entirely, let me get you another drink”.
Without saying another thing I walked to the bar without glancing or waiting for acceptance or a challenge. “I’ll take two bottles of beer and a couple of shots of spirits” he said as I looked at him whilst listening to the voice in my head say “Oh no, you didn’t” as it was obviously time for some action as this dude had mistaken my kindness for weakness. “Wait” he said, repeating my first word in our interaction. “You’re obviously not from round here, guessing by that accent but what gave it away is how you handled yourself and didn’t get all up in my grill. These things happen, this rounds on me and they’re for you and your woman. Enjoy your evening”.
That was it.
As you can imagine it wasn’t so much a lightbulb in head moment but a kaleidoscope of energetics that felt like I was mainlining the secret truth of the universe in one hit. The sensation was exhilarating. I finally had the proof I’d been seeking which said that I’m the only person in this realm and all I interact with are reflections of my awareness. Subconscious projections given lips to speak words and do things designed to draw my attention within to the root cause to address. That truly is the point of the Game we’re all playing by inserting our Souls as credits to wear the flesh thats currently wrapped around your unfinite awareness and ignorance of this golden rule is why the world is in a near constant state of conflict because it can be applied to the individual, movements and countries as well for they are all, at their most fundamental, made up of people that operate under the influence of these Patterns that then dictate and control their actions via certain internal mechanisms that are used for manipulation to prevent the realization of this. Once seen you can’t help but wonder how you missed them because the only constant in all situations and interactions is you so why not do the Knowledge and up your wavelength to a greater octave of expression as you actualize your highest potential?
For many reading this will be a true straight line in Tetris moment as loads of old blocks melt and you comprehend the elegant simplicity of this trick. That is what makes it so effective because the hint comes when you point a finger as three are aimed at the true cause and point of origin as its all about how you relate to your energetics. After all, your mind is the only thing you can control and actually change in this realm hence Know thy Self truly is the key to freedom from the Mind Made Prison that keeps many people dancing like puppets on the strings of ever shifting whims mixed in with repetitive events and interactions that make up lives lived on the lowest form of resonance in near total ignorance of their truest potential and how to actualize it. Suddenly, all regret over the past vanished as it had lead me to an immense realization that I knew then that not many ever get whilst living as they spend their life and death wrestling with shadows that don’t exist any more than the life they give them. The seeds that would grow into the Path of Power were being sprinkled and I, in turn, would feed and nurture these shoots inside the newly landscaped garden of my awareness via the optimal use of my attention from that moment on.
That entire situation could’ve gone down different, way different, I realized after leaving the scene at two AM and Witnessing what popped off in an altercation on the pavement between said chap and someone else as there was a reason the place had metal detectors and (as I’d find later) such a rep as a lot of what was started within these walls was handled outside after getting equipped for a different type of conversation. These things do happen and many a persons chapter has ended when they should’ve zigged instead of zagging. Since then I’ve used this modality frequently, both for me and clients as well, because its so insanely powerful and proves first hand that you are the main playa of the Game and we’re actually playing against ourselves as the true Opponent is literally our own ignorance. High, way above all of this, its actually the real you against the false aspect as there are actually three levels occurring in the same instance but lets not get too metaphysic yet because once you’ve conquered this molehill the shadows depth becomes obvious and when your eyes adjust to see in the darkness you’ll notice a clear light shine within that was always present but very cleverly hidden and all altercations were actually offers to take this subquest that leads to swiftly leveling up in ways previously unimagined in this Game we’re playing by inserting our Souls as credits for each spin.
Till we meet again
