“OK, get this. I think we’re dead, this is hell, god is the devil and by having sex you trap another Soul in the flesh and at the same time set in motion your next incarnation. Its a trap. A trick. Its very, very slick. Super seductive and really effective but from end to end its a grift, get it?”.
“Wow. It gets really dark inside that head of yours, doesn’t it? I’m flattered that you can be so open but then I strongly suspect you’d probably say the same thing to any girl you just met in order to gauge her wavelength”.
“If she can’t swim, then she’s bound to drizzown!”. She laughed. And floated.
“I can’t even imagine what the hell someone must have been through in order to draw such conclusions. Truly can’t. Its fascinating though because its so different. I don’t believe it though. Its not possible“.
“Why?”
“There is too much good in the world. Take your first kiss, for example, its an earth shaking moment. That feeling of connection, the spark, the resonance and excitement. Not just this but things like a warm drink and a good book when you’re sitting inside listening to the rain on the window pane or what happens within when you master a new skill or rise to a challenge. These things are widespread and there are countless other small beacons of hope as well”.
“Your word choice is telling. Beacons. They are only needed in the midst of an all engulfing darkness. Blips of hope in an ocean of boredom”.
“Once again thats a really bleak way of looking at things because whilst they can be seen like that its also a peak experience. Sometimes the small things mean everything and the overall picture is irrelevant”.
“So “I don’t like this, strike it from the record” wishful thinking and editing. I’m about the truth, unvarnished“.
“Didn’t you just say that we don’t see the world as it is but as we are? I’m certain I read this so, from that lens, you’re simply stating you carry this darkness within”.
“I do and I am. Exodus, eternal, is of the utmost importance. The rest is mere window dressing”.
“Nah, I don’t believe this. First off all you grin too much for someone who sounds so depressed and second what if its the cracks that let the shine that rest keep hidden? What if you’ve got all the right pieces but the order is missing?“.
“Good idea. I have wondered this which is why I dig this type of conversation as vibe without filters, world building or second guessing is binary introspection in which a third perspective is built that is akin to a space of options for those talking. Its neuro linguistic evolution, the link of language and energetics in the best sense“.
“See, there it is. The eternal optimist. Now, what happens if we put that at the head instead of the moody goth who thinks life is death and we’ve incarnated in hell to be punished for our ignorance. What would be the difference then?”.
“Get buck wild and let it rip till you’re RIP? Push it to the limit and rinse the spin for all you can get? Basically become a hedonist and enjoy the moment”.
“Do you? Enjoy the moment or do you hold it at a distance and analyze it? How much of your life have you actually lived and how much has been observed and pondered?”.
“Most of it. I’m not fully at home on this planet. I have a yearning for elsewhen, the eternal misfit. The wanderer wondering why the hell its taking so long to make the trip back beyond the wheel of incarnation. Don’t you get it? One life after the next with a memory wipe thrown in the mix. This isn’t theoretical musing, its concrete imperience“.
“Right, because you can remember your other lives due to a cartoon talking jive“.
“Exactly“.
“You know how nuts thats sounds, don’t you? “Why sure, the TV was beaming private signals in my head that reminded me of my incarnation as the sacred vessel of spiritual sex that turned the divine feminine in to a commodity to be traded for profit via sacrilege and, by the way, this is the real reason behind the red heels trend”. Doesn’t that sound a little nutty to you?”.
“But its true though. I was still a child and there was no way they could be prodromal symptoms plus the message came from my intuition that decoded the signals and it wasn’t till the aftermath of my near death that cracked my shell and let the informational energetics pour in from other incarnations”.
“OK, lets say I buy it and it is what you’ve said. What happiness does it bring? Is it all worth it at the end of the day or are you just chasing your tail, metaphysically speaking, as a way of evading living”.
“Living is overrated. Death is the most interesting thing because its mans most loyal friend. Everyone else can turn their backs and dip but the reaper will always swing through at the appropriate moment that embraces you through the grave and thats when things get interesting“.
“Theres that darkness again. I’m wondering now if what shines without creates the darkness within because of its total absence”.
“Could be but it isn’t. See what you think is darkness is a different type of light beyond the regular spectrum. This is what I meant when I said I’m multidimensional. It truly doesn’t feel I ever fully incarnated in this realm hence just visiting. Call it a glitch in the Matrix, a Soul in prep mode for the exit or a man facing his final incarnation. The labels are irrelevant because the imperience triumphs everything and I know what I’m intuiting is solid“.
“And yet those great skills and discernment lead you to befriend enemies who wished the best to your face and plotted your demise behind the scenes? At one point you were certain of them to”.
“True, thats why I just hold perspectives and not opinions as they evolve when new info pours in. Besides, they were playing various tricks and pimping angles of resonance and links from previous incarnations in order to weasel their way in but now there are no squares in my circle”.
“Or so you think”.
“Yep, you may be one for all I know which is why we get along so well from a random conversation which may actually be the end result of a careful calculation that was tailor made to spark attraction and all of this here is primed by a script designed to elicit certain things as you mess with my energetics”.
“Wow. OK, thats full on schizo territory now. For someone who is obviously totally insane you really hold it together pretty well from a distance but up close and personal its like talking to a few different people in one incarnation”.
“What if thats the point and I’m simply being natural and multidimensional whereas the rest have been trained into being a paper thin facsimile? Ever wondered this? Why, out of the half million or so people I’ve spoken to in the flesh, would every single one of them attest “I’ve never met anyone like you before”. Do the mathematics and the sketch thats drawn paints a coherent pic”.
“That we’re dead, this is hell and what people think is god is actually the devil and he has minions everywhen in the flesh to act as his agents of chaos but they’ll never tell anyone the true secret because they themselves don’t know it and spend lifetime after lifetime gaining spiritual debt thats disguised as enlightenment. Wildly paranoid. Like straight off your meds type thinking there”.
“And yet not one of these so call scientists or medical professionals seem to have noticed that every single schizophrenic, ever, has always said the same thing. Surely that counts for something on either side of the fence because its omission is glaring”.
“What do you mean?”.
“”Something I don’t know is putting thoughts in my head” said every nutter from the inception of this malady to the end. I’m saying the same thing. Call it the (false) self, the devil or Opponent, its irrelevant, they’re all pointing at the same thing and its that voice in your head, that egoic double that induced a state of collective hypnosis and tricks the individual into think they’re it when in reality they’re something different and far more in line with my just visiting perspective”.
“I can’t rebut this. There is a definite method to your madness and you really state it with such a confidence that its quite easy to believe it”.
“Don’t believe a thing. Test it for your Self. Take what works, ditch the rest. Imperiment and share your findings”.
“Thats slick, so no E X but switch that for I M instead. This goes back to the whole “English is Devilish“, “White man speaks with forked tongue” thing, correct?”.
“Yep. Thats exactly what I’m saying. Its subtle but obvious. Nothing is hidden from those who see with the eyes of Inner Sense as you need to draw the links”.
“Which is exactly the same thing the schizophrenic does that gets him involuntarily medicated. That kind of thinking is dangerous“.
“Better than Thunking, isn’t it?”.
“OK, that I do have to admit is a concept I instantly saluted. It makes perfect sense. Ha! “Thunking”. Chunks of prefabricated thought shuffled around in your awareness to form a string of concepts that can only ever draw from a certain set of variables in lieu of true creative expression”.
“Impression”.
“Right, impression. Gah, even the word feels different”.
“How?”.
“Well, its obvious, isn’t it? The E X sound opens your lips round with teeth bared as air escapes in the mind but the I M reverses this and closes your mouth and keeps the vibration within. That is quite slick. Have you ever thought of just sanitizing bits and pieces to present a simple argument that can’t be denied instead of a dizzying array of things that make peoples head spin as their brain can’t cope with it. Jung did just this after he delved into his inner realms, otherwise its instant confusion due to self projection when talking to regular people as they’ve never introspected. Normal folk just don’t think like this…”.
“How do you get it then? Whats the attraction?”.
“I don’t know. I guess I’ve always felt like a round peg in a square hole. There are some links between how we think but you’re a straight up extremist in comparison. Isn’t this exhausting? How is anyone supposed to keep up with this?”.
“That isn’t the first time I’ve heard this and its why being the first diamond in a mine of coals is the loneliest imperience one can manifest because you’re the same in essence but totally different in application”.
“There’s that grandiose sense of Self again. So we have a man who believes he is nothing yet everything, totally irrelevant but also the most vital to comprehend. I don’t know whether I should be laughing or crying as I try to imagine this and how it feels to live”.
“What if my smiles were flipped tears and an elaborate coping mech that stitches together the broken aspects and I constantly shifts the pieces of my shattered inner realms in an ever evolving narrative in order to reclaim that sense of wholeness that most take for granted which then grants them optimal resonance to a collective which is profoundly sick and lauds their brainwashing as the optimal way of doing things“.
“See, that, right there. Thats it. Thats the problem. Regular people simply cannot comprehend the concept of taking their entire personality and dumping it in the recycle bin. To them, that is death. And yet, they still live. Its terrifying. You can call it an illusion, a sickness, whatever you wish. The fact of the matter is reality is what you can get away with and most people like this script because it works for them, ticks a lot of boxes and lets them navigate this realm”.
“A reality tunnel. Thats all it is”.
“Ah yes, the infamous reality tunnel. You know, I tried what you said and attempted to stop digging. Yes, it did feel uncomfortable. Yes, I realized these were manipulations at the behest of the (false) self. Yes, I clicked I’m the Witness and thus this plays out inside my consciousness and yet I still fell back in the habit of listening to what it said, doing as instructed. Don’t you find it tempting? How do you manage to avoid it? Actually, do you mean to tell me there is no voice in your head? Ever? How do you know what to think?“.
“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a Thunk. Thats all that is. Those are the rearranged pieces and thats why they’re predictable. When they’re not present what was hidden by their graven image is seen. Just like the stars are out in the day but can only be seen at night due to the change in light”.
“So thats why it sounds so dark within. Interesting. I can’t even imagine what its like to not have that narrative. Its been there so long and it feels so natural. Life without it? Where would I begin?”.
“Thats why you were a meat puppet. Just like the rest of them. Now you’ve awakened“.
“81%. How did you come to such a precise calculation?”.
“Simple. If ten people came to see me I can be fairly certain that 8 of them will not have a clue about what I’m saying. More than one will but try to play it off or misdirect as these are the secrets that make men kings and then, when scaled an octave, the false gods of this realm. Less than one will not only know but have been thinking about these kind of things themselves and will speak with immense freedom due to the glad tidings it brings to be in resonance with another who sees beyond the veils and spots the seams welded in to their awareness that once was different”.
“Inner Sense?”.
‘Inner Sense. That is from where I’m speaking and why I say we’re all Warriors when we step in before we get Adulterated”.
“Man, my head is swimming again. Its simply too much to comprehend as so many points go against the grain of what I’ve been trained to expect… And yet, it does make a certain type of sense, Mr Svengali…”.
Till we meet again
