“Are you living the life you want to live?”.
“What do you mean? Can you be more specific?”.
“How much more obvious can it get? Why are you avoiding the question?”.
“I’m not, its just its not that simple and I feel you expect a quick yes or no, off rip, when its much more subtle“.
“That means “No, but I’m afraid to admit it because then I’ll be miserable””.
“No it doesn’t. Stop projecting and putting words into my dish that I haven’t said”.
“But you’ve felt them. Can you think how diff this convo would be after a couple of drinks? They say the truth slips when you forget to pack your mask for the evening, yes?”.
“Ahhhhh! Its always a head trip when you’re in a mood like this. OK, I’ll admit that the moment you asked the question I knew the answer was “No”, in an instant”.
“Till you heard “But…” and the rest of the narrative kicked in. Like I said, back when, that is your Opponent. You aren’t it and it exists solely to trick you into accepting its suggestions as a script that you then go on and manifest. See how its so much simpler when one is Centered in Self as you don’t have to keep engaging in all this mess of world building and projection along with the stress of seeming perfect plus what of the immense hint about your compartmentalization aka the fragmented Self which is a hallmark of the spell that holds 81% of the planet in its grip”.
“OK. No, I’m not. Is anyone? Really? I don’t think they are but most people just don’t have the time, patience or inclination to think at this depth because a) its super depressing and b) there is a lot of resistance and c) bills are in effect”.
“Aka the psychosocial treadmill“.
“Yep, that I don’t disagree with”.
“So, if you could be anywhere and do anything with money being no object, just living with pure passion, what and where do you pick?“.
“I want to climb mountains. I don’t know what it is about heights but they spark something within as you’re away from the madness and totally grounded in the present which, if you think, is mad ironic as you’re actually clambering up a hill. I’ve done a bit, here and there, but not at the length I wish. Its exhilarating and there is an immense sense of satisfaction you feel so profoundly within when you hit the summit that real life itself is totally lacking. Gosh, the treadmill. You know I was so forlorn when that concept actually sunk in because before it was totally invisible and now I can’t miss it. I genuinely can’t imagine what the hell goes on in that head or how you even manage to relate to the rest as its so tiring to keep pace. You’re relentless, you know?”.
“Yeah, they say that. To me its just natural. I think what you lot do is a strange skill you’ve learned. Or adapted. Like a flea circus. Ha! Thats perfect as their leap is curtailed and thus they put on a performance. Deep down within you know they must think its ridiculous or something is missing from the pic and yet the environment is set, perfect, to keep them locked in to an induced resonance as it favors another mind that lords over them. That describes, real well, life on this planet”.
“Yeah, no. Not going there today, thanks. Thats literally a ticket to no kip and lying in bed thinking at Two AM. Not feeling that trip but it proves, real well, what I said about the inside of your head because you just take it in stride like thats the sketch and keep it moving”.
“Its why I’ve said most people Thunk as there is plenty they won’t accept and even more they don’t suspect as well all the stuff they cannot allow themselves to think aka the Mind Made Prison they dwell within. I mean, imagine you lived and died like one of those well trained fleas and at the end they showed you a flick of how high you could leap, chilling on a leaf with your side piece, watching nature do its thing and you said “Hell yeah, sign me up for this!” and then got tricked by a pimp with a circus again. Can you pretend one turns to the next whilst in the construction and said “Say, do you think we could stretch our legs more than this? Is this light real? Why did we need to sit still and look ahead whilst doing well on the test?“”. She started laughing then said:
“You really make it all sound so ridiculous but I can’t deny the logic behind it. No, in that context the well trained flea would think he’s flipped his lid because of the construction that makes them fit within boxes they don’t suspect but expect, nonetheless. Context is an amazing thing. Got to admit, I’m still tripping off what you said about brainwaves and resonance. That was simply mindblowing and I wonder why they keep it hid?”.
“Why not? Because its effective and how it is. The world is filled with datasets and sciences straining in their own directions but no polymaths or natural philosophers of an intuitive bent to stitch together a narrative that the rest can challenge or inspect. Instead they dwell within a chunk of their head being force fed labels in lieu of imperience and most couldn’t give an F as long as they can happily amuse themselves to death. So, back on thread, why aren’t you living the life you want to live? The one of which you know you are capable?”.
“Duh, money. Why else? You know I jet off on a trip every month or six but I can’t afford to do all that and pay the rent etc so something has to give. Its why I live in that tiny apartment, shop at a thrift and ride the bus etc etc”.
“And yet, if I asked you if you were free you say “Yes”, instantly“.
“Yeah, now this one is a thinker. That I will admit because I literally didn’t go to bed after you broached that topic. Its like you said, the hardest thing to see is the world thats been pulled over your eyelids as you think thats it. Gah! Its such an amazing trick. No wonder this shadowy clique you posit see you as a bete noire, par excellence. Truly I can agree with them sometimes because you present an alternative that can’t be unconsidered once known and that can be quite threatening”.
“Birds raised in a cage think flying is a sickness but what if one steps in and won’t stop spreading his wings? Surely there must be some type of hundredth monkey effect, yes? And even if there isn’t I’d rather be the jelly that pushes against the limits than folds in upon itself“.
“I don’t know. I really don’t. Most people don’t like boat rocking and such things. Its like what you said about about creating a working vacation then negotiating a graft from home but at a distance with my current occupation. Its an amazing concept, truly it is. Workable as well but I just can’t bring myself to implement it as the resistance is immense and I feel like I’d be spread too thin. Besides, I don’t mind the office and look forward to the hills”.
“Sad, isn’t it? How many people are allergic to success, afraid to win and scared to death of admitting this. Its what secretly powers the treadmill and thus it a mind Game, par excellence. A total trip in which the fleas legs never spring even though they dream of ascent and the freedom which speaks to the potential thats within as their true nature was trained out of them to make way for something else”.
“What if that is exactly how its supposed to be though? I don’t buy into the whole stages thing or these invisible and powerful agents of manipulation-“.
“Even though your life stands as testament?” I asked, with a grin.
“Shut up! There is literally no proof, its wild tinfoil at best and could be explained well by the machinations of powerful men and no need for off planet interference“.
“Take what works, leave the rest. I just kick the ballistics as I see them and decode at the res I process in the moment and to me its Self evident because consciousness is all there is ergo if we are wearing the tech that allows us to interact with this realm then it makes sense there are those without that do their thing without its constriction as their matter is more subtle”.
“Yeah, thats totally mind bending. Like schizo lane, for certain”.
“Don’t you think its strange that every single nutter, ever, has always said the same thing? That something outside of them is putting thoughts in their head? And how the rest of the well adjusted simply accept that voice which speaks just like them and question not its edicts and suggestions but choose to enact them instead?”.
“I’ve just felt something in my spinal column that was like the opposite of AMSR. RSMA, I’m calling it. Its a wild and creepy sensation that is grossly stimulating. I don’t know, I really don’t. You may have just hit the nail on the head or could be a madman who is off his meds or a zillion and one other things but this mind without limits bit is exhausting to keep up with as most just want to keep their head down and live the script as it takes way less effort but I can’t deny that I see way more mechanized habits – what did you call them again?”.
“Patterns“.
“Yeah, right. Patterns. The old click-whirr, no thinking needed, rinsed and repeated ways of being. Its amazing how they’re obvious but invisible until you start decoding instead of being encoded. I don’t know, maybe you’re right about the whole thing and this really is a Game we’re playing using our Souls as credits. If it is then I can’t help but wonder why you choose this method of engagement because surely you would do best up a hill, at a distance, with all that time to think and flesh out your concepts in a quest for higher consciousness?”.
“I could, probably would and most likely will. But not at this moment as it doesn’t feel appropriate. It seems like I’ve got to lace the 8 with Game before I step, even if its a basic outline of a sketch as your imperiment proves that once seen it can’t be missed and thus the OS inside your head is now irrevocably different as you decode a greater resonance which, in turn, brings shifts to the collective as each one, teach one is in effect as you’ll tell a friend who tells a friend and thus begins the involution”.
“Ha! So there is a method to the madness. Yeah, that makes sense but I think you really over estimate the intelligence or general openness of most people. I cannot think of a single friend with whom I could have these conversations without them considering me a loon. Simply won’t happen”.
“See. Thats exactly the mindset that stopped you implementing the remote work challenge I set because you’re defeated from within and thats a litmus test which reveals the fingerprints of your Opponent who is, at this moment, feasting on your consciousness as he suppresses your potential by running interference via the voice in your head which leads us back, full circle, and ties the whole things into a nice thread of coherent narrative which shows the flea’s been trained well and doesn’t want to leap too far or stretch its legs for fear of bumping its head even though the conditions are induced and totally unnatural”.
“You really are incorrigible” she said with a shake of her head.
Till we meet again
